Can Isolation be dubbed as a stressor?

Probably more like a fear that becomes overpowering that it practically starts stressing me out.

I updated my LJ more about it, only because I can control who sees it; whereas this blog I can't really.  Not that I mind, because this blog is more where I can discuss a general amount of things going on.  It's awkward though keeping a Journal and a Blog at the same time.  (I end up feeling like I'm somehow "cheating" on the other when I update one and not the other ^_^; )

I think my time at my church is getting limited. I'm going to start trying other Southern Baptist churches and see what can really work.  I need someplace that has a more open minded setting and have people from all walks of life.

I'm not a typical girl, I wasn't raised by two parents, I haven't had a boyfriend or a lover of any sorts, and I have some hobbies that people at my present church question (like my costuming).

I haven't gone to BIG HUGE university and had mommy and daddy pay for it (or, in some cases, most of the church). I'm 24 and I'm still working on achieving my Associates Degree. By the time I'm done with my degrees, I'll be hitting my 30s.

I have a unique personality and I'm generally easy to get along with.  That being said, I'm also very easily distracted.

I don't have any pets, but I have a few that I consider close enough to be mine.

I'm not skinny, nor will I ever be. But, I'm going to love my curves and work it to where I can wear the things I love.

I love planning things, and when I'm given all the information, I'll be so meticulous that I'll have everything to the last corner on the table cloth folded right. I've planned every Otakon room that I could and every year, it's worked out!

I've very rarely snobbed someone.  I try to accept people for who they are, because I would want someone to do the same for me.  You know that old golden saying: "Treat Others The Way You Want To Be Treated?" Yea, I've pretty much lived my life like that.  It pains me when I'm snobbed (like I was last night) and I begin to wonder what I have done wrong.

There's nothing I'm really spectacular at. I've tried doing several different things (as my resume will tell you) and I have found an interest in the Music and Public Relations Industry. I've found my solace in music and being around the people that I care about. I love being behind a microphone, speaking mainly.

I blast my music in the car when it's legal to do so. And I'll sing above it too. I have a lead foot and sometimes a hot head (and I've come close to paying for it too).

I find learning about different cultures, religions, and languages fascinating.  I'm particularly into the Japanese culture.

I watch Anime, read manga, actively listen to JMusic, and participate (as much as my budget allows) in the JFashion scene.

I love to roleplay with my friends, even though I don't get to do it enough.

Most of the time, I'm insecure.  If I end up following someone around, it's because I don't know what else to do other than sitting off in a corner by myself.

I treasure the friends I have outside of church more than one could ever know.  Lena & Ji, my lil sis, my otouto, my little bro, THE GROUP, my con buddies, Immaturia (what's left of it), and the several others I have day to day interactions with.  I can relate to them the most, and they are possibly the most accepting people I have met. We're all from different walks of life and we have accepted those. The memories I have with them are possibly the best I'll ever have and I keep them close to my heart.  I wish I could talk to them more and I feel horrible when we go for a long time without talking.

But, if someone should mess with my friends, I will stand up for them (providing I find it tactful and appropriate to do so).

Once Trust is broken with me, it's very very hard to regain that back. Even then, things won't be the same.

Don't you dare insult me in front of a crowd either. The minute you tell me that my choice in Anime sucks is the minute I leave you hanging for the rest of the event.  I'm not going to be very motivated to help you on anything.

I'm not a hardcore gamer, but I play Pokemon. In fact, I want to get through Black so I can get back to Silver and finish it. ^_^;  I can't draw to save my life, but I can trace!! I also do really good at creating fonts and writing.

If you can't accept me for who I am, then you need to take a step out of my life and quit bringing my spirit down.

...Wow, this went from a pity entry to a motivational entry... ^_^;

Ear Candy: Cage (ReMix) - Dir en grey

20 days later

Things have been slightly crazy these passed few days.  Not only have I been learning a new job, but I have been trying to play catch up and do everything else too.

I'm going to be dropping my Wellness Theory class, so there really wouldn't be a need to update this blog any longer. But, I think I'm going to do my best to do it anyways.  Maybe it will hold me more accountable towards things.

Stressors as of late:
- The Wedding.  Or rather, my part, the Bridal Shower.  I have yet to get the guest list, and I'm scared to death of telling the bride that, oh hey, since you didn't give me a guest list, I can't really invite anyone, can I?  It kills me because I feel if I'm in a darned if I do, I try to do, or I don't.  Nothing's going to be good enough.

- My Job. Now, don't get me wrong on this part, I love my job now.  Working at the credit union is probably the best thing that's happened in awhile.  But, the learning part of everything is still kind of stressful.

- Classes. As I mentioned before, I have to drop my Fitness class.  The professors have two different ways of teaching and handling situations, and it's driving me crazy.  One also proceeded to call me a liar, rudely dismissed me, and then make sexist comments all night. I ended up leaving early.  Bad thing is, I have to wait until next week before I can meet with my advisor and talk to her about the situation.   My other class that's kind of got me stressed is my Internet Technologies class. I haven't really done any assignments and I doubt there's not a way to regain my grade with that class.

Because of these stressors, I've been eating a lot more.  I stopped wearing my Pokewalker, so I've slacked off quite a bit.  But, I have the orientation for my walking class, so I'm looking forward to getting that started!

Life, man, life's happening and it's happening pretty fast.

Ear candy: The World is not Enough - Garbage

Trying to catch up on Labs!

Long time, no blog! pffft, yea right!

So, like I said last post, I'm going to try and update some on these labs and assignments before work.

My SMART Goals
S(pecific) - I want to be able to wear and look good in a Sailor Venus cosplay by Otakon 2012.
M(easurable) - I want to end up going back to having at 31in waist and slimmer legs.
A(cceptable) - I want to feel comfortable in my own skin
R(ealistic) - I want to be able to fit in the bridesmaid's dress and not look so fat in my pictures.
T(ime-specific) - I guess it's the same as my Specific goal.  I want to look good by that time.

Lab 6A: Cardiorespiratory Endurance Assessment


II. 1.0 Mile Walk
Gender: Female (0)
Time: 25 minutes 38 seconds
Heart Rate: 32 bpm
Time in minutes: 1.5 minutes

VO2max = 88.768 - (21.4368) + 0 - 2.18055 - 3.8208
               = 61.32985 mL/kg/min

I need to do more, but I have to leave for work. Later~!

Beginning of a new month!

Okay, so I'm really bad at keeping this....  I shouldn't be, considering this is for my class.

I haven't been documenting what I've been eating like I wanted too, only because of all of the craziness that's been going on these passed couple weeks.

I finished up my training for my job today, passing my first and second assessment within the same week of each other.  So, a lot of my time has been taken up by studying from these two exams.  While I have managed to start a semi regular method of cutting back on eating, it's been difficult.  But, since I started this, I've lost 1.8lbs.  I have been keeping my Pokewalker on me, so I'll list the days:

Today (so far): 2,786
Yesterday -1 Days: 2,011
-2 Days: 2,828
-3 Days: 4,550
-4 Days: 1,793
-5 Days: 1,400
-6 Days: 2,220
-7 Days: 2,273

I did end up getting over 12,000 steps at Katsucon, but since it was over 7 days ago, I lost the amount.  But, since I started with the Pokewalker, I have taken 102,936 steps in the course of 28 days.  After I write this today, I'll be pulling my Pidgey from my Pokewalker, putting in another pokemon, and starting my step count all over again.

Katsucon was good! Getting everything done before then on top of my homework was quite the stressful thing.

Unfortunately, most of my training and everything else has put me back on doing any classwork for a good portion of my Labs for my Fitness Class and the work for my Internet Technologies class.  I'll be bringing my laptop with me tomorrow to start documenting on the labs that I did end up doing and not writing down in here.

On the bright side of it all, I don't think this job is going to be anywhere near as stressful as the Music Studio was.  My boss is absolutely awesome and so understanding of everything! I couldn't ask for anyone nicer and more awesome! :3

All in all, I think everything is going to work out. Now, I've just got to get caught up on my studies and it'll be all good!